25 January, 2015



1. the power or ability to return to the original form, position, etc, after being bent, compressed or stretched; elasticity. 

2. ability to recover readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like; buoyancy. 

Little Joany is ready for her first day of school.
Her mummy plaited her thick hair tight that morning.
Little Joany takes a deep breath before walking in.
Her mummy waves goodbye, with a tear in her eye. 

Little Joany hasn't made any friends at school.
The kids push her down in the yard and pull her hair.
Little Joany sits by herself at lunch.
Mummy asks how'd it go, Joany replies "so, so"

Joany made a friend at school today.
Finally! A new girl who came from USA.
Joany and Sarah were the best of friends.
Best Friends Forever, no matter the weather.

Joany doesn't
     speak at 
Her mummy has gone on a long holiday they say. 

drip, drip, drip.

Joan moves from home to home.
Never letting a place stick.
Some were nice others not so much
She was lonely but she didn't care. 

drip, drip, drip.

Joan got into big trouble today.
The teachers say she can't come back.
Joan pretends she doesn't give a shit.
Her peers call her stupid, and so does cupid

Joan let's boys have their way.
Even when she doesn't really want it.
Joan doesn't think she deserves better.
What a mistake, she certainly makes

drip, drip, drip.

Joan gets rejected job after job.
She has no qualifications.
No qualifications no family
No change.

Joan doesn't "find" christ or go to therapy.
She stays where she is because that's how it is. 

What happens the Little Joany you ask? 
Who will ever know? Not you. 

Because I don't have the patience,
             to finish the poem on the lack of resilience.

I do not have a story like Little Joany, mine is much more 1st world appropriate and it doesn't rhyme. And I know many have stories much more painful then Little Joany's too. However, this year, I want to focus on resilience. Its such a powerful word but it sounds very dramatic and almost childish when I say I need develop more of it. The thing is, everyone needs to, no matter that their story is.

For me, I want to be resilient towards...

1. Unrealistic female body expectations
I don't want to shut down after Victoria shows her secrets.

2. Change of plans
I want to be able to enjoy myself no matter what happens.

3. Criticism
I want to be gracious but also stand my ground and not let people walk over me.

4. Jealously and competition
Don't let it become a habit, (and here comes the line everyone tells you but is true) confidence is more attractive. 

I want to be strong.
I want to enjoy being me.
And I want others to enjoy me.
Honestly... I just want to have more god dam fun this year. 



2015 Claire. 

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